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Helping each other see ourselves

I was reading my list of affirmations from others and people’s favorite memories of me list tonight.  Sometimes there are memes and posts that say something to the effect of “you have to see your own worth before anyone with treat you as worth while”. And these drive me bonkers! I firmly believe that these […]

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Thoughts on cuffs work by slaves by me

Cuffs are worn as a sign of power. Wonder Woman, one of the major icons of female empowerment, wear cuffs.  Never forget these are a sign of your strength in flexibility.  The branch that bends does not break in a storm.  Wearing cuffs is a promise to yourself that you will maintain yourself as a […]

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Breaking breakup silence

One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]

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Requesting a change and my own safe space

This is a copy of a letter I wrote a potential Owner after they asked for access to my journals. It was also after an incident where they decide to drop several “disappointed”s on me because I made a decision on an area I hadn’t yet given them control of and they didn’t like it. […]

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Mental Health Growth

A few years ago, I desperately needed to not be alone. Fear and pride stood in my way however and I walked away from someone trying to help me because my heart hurt so much.  I was in crisis and made a poor decision to crawl into a bottle looking to become numb. It was […]

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Reflections After Breakups

One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully, by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]

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Colorado Leather Fest 2016 – my perspective

For most people Colorado Leather Fest 2016 started on Friday mid-afternoon or evening.  For me, it started almost 3 years before. You see, about three years prior my MOO (Master of Origin) heard stirrings about a new event that was going to be started in Colorado and got both of us invited to that initial […]

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Needing to be Broken

I cried myself to sleep last night. The Dragon (my hubby) for a little bit had his hands on my hip and pet me. This morning I posted on Facebook “sometimes you have to cry and do it anyway” that was just prior to an almost four hour long cathartic meltdown. Dragon tried to be […]

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Scenes going sideways

Sometimes scenes go sideways and that’s ok. Last night I was enjoying a warm up when I felt my PTSD kicking in. It was sudden and there was just another sound that wasn’t even in my scene that hit a trigger for me. I checked in with myself as I realized my brain wasn’t following […]

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