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Mental Health Growth

A few years ago, I desperately needed to not be alone. Fear and pride stood in my way however and I walked away from someone trying to help me because my heart hurt so much.  I was in crisis and made a poor decision to crawl into a bottle looking to become numb. It was […]

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Reflections After Breakups

One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully, by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]

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Needing to be Broken

I cried myself to sleep last night. The Dragon (my hubby) for a little bit had his hands on my hip and pet me. This morning I posted on Facebook “sometimes you have to cry and do it anyway” that was just prior to an almost four hour long cathartic meltdown. Dragon tried to be […]

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Scenes going sideways

Sometimes scenes go sideways and that’s ok. Last night I was enjoying a warm up when I felt my PTSD kicking in. It was sudden and there was just another sound that wasn’t even in my scene that hit a trigger for me. I checked in with myself as I realized my brain wasn’t following […]

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a starter Glossary of Kink Terms

Glossary of some common terms: BDSM – An acronym for Bondage, Discipline/Dominace, submission/Sadism, Masochism.  A term used for all Kinky relationships/interactions Power – the capacity or ability to direct or influence the behavior of others or the course of events Control – to have power over (something/someone), to direct the behavior of (a person or […]

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Slave Strength to fight PTSD

This week on Facebook, I shared a post about struggling with my PTSD. It took me almost 30 minutes to be able to go into my home last night and then it took active support from three people to help get me to where I was able to do some self care actions that I […]

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