Breaking breakup silence

One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]

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Requesting a change and my own safe space

This is a copy of a letter I wrote a potential Owner after they asked for access to my journals. It was also after an incident where they decide to drop several “disappointed”s on me because I made a decision on an area I hadn’t yet given them control of and they didn’t like it. […]

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Mental Health Growth

A few years ago, I desperately needed to not be alone. Fear and pride stood in my way however and I walked away from someone trying to help me because my heart hurt so much.  I was in crisis and made a poor decision to crawl into a bottle looking to become numb. It was […]

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Reflections After Breakups

One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully, by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]

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Colorado Leather Fest 2016 – my perspective

For most people Colorado Leather Fest 2016 started on Friday mid-afternoon or evening.  For me, it started almost 3 years before. You see, about three years prior my MOO (Master of Origin) heard stirrings about a new event that was going to be started in Colorado and got both of us invited to that initial […]

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Needing to be Broken

I cried myself to sleep last night. The Dragon (my hubby) for a little bit had his hands on my hip and pet me. This morning I posted on Facebook “sometimes you have to cry and do it anyway” that was just prior to an almost four hour long cathartic meltdown. Dragon tried to be […]

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Scenes going sideways

Sometimes scenes go sideways and that’s ok. Last night I was enjoying a warm up when I felt my PTSD kicking in. It was sudden and there was just another sound that wasn’t even in my scene that hit a trigger for me. I checked in with myself as I realized my brain wasn’t following […]

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a starter Glossary of Kink Terms

Glossary of some common terms: BDSM – An acronym for Bondage, Discipline/Dominace, submission/Sadism, Masochism.  A term used for all Kinky relationships/interactions Power – the capacity or ability to direct or influence the behavior of others or the course of events Control – to have power over (something/someone), to direct the behavior of (a person or […]

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