One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]
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This is a copy of a letter I wrote a potential Owner after they asked for access to my journals. It was also after an incident where they decide to drop several “disappointed”s on me because I made a decision on an area I hadn’t yet given them control of and they didn’t like it. […]
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A few years ago, I desperately needed to not be alone. Fear and pride stood in my way however and I walked away from someone trying to help me because my heart hurt so much. I was in crisis and made a poor decision to crawl into a bottle looking to become numb. It was […]
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One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully, by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]
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For most people Colorado Leather Fest 2016 started on Friday mid-afternoon or evening. For me, it started almost 3 years before. You see, about three years prior my MOO (Master of Origin) heard stirrings about a new event that was going to be started in Colorado and got both of us invited to that initial […]
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I cried myself to sleep last night. The Dragon (my hubby) for a little bit had his hands on my hip and pet me. This morning I posted on Facebook “sometimes you have to cry and do it anyway” that was just prior to an almost four hour long cathartic meltdown. Dragon tried to be […]
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Sometimes scenes go sideways and that’s ok. Last night I was enjoying a warm up when I felt my PTSD kicking in. It was sudden and there was just another sound that wasn’t even in my scene that hit a trigger for me. I checked in with myself as I realized my brain wasn’t following […]
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Glossary of some common terms: BDSM – An acronym for Bondage, Discipline/Dominace, submission/Sadism, Masochism. A term used for all Kinky relationships/interactions Power – the capacity or ability to direct or influence the behavior of others or the course of events Control – to have power over (something/someone), to direct the behavior of (a person or […]
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Thunder in the Mountains was a very unusual event for me this year. I’m still processing much of it. So far, when people have asked me how it was, I’ve said ”ok.”You see, I had some expectations going to the event of what would happen. I expected myself to be on my game, with good […]
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