Slave Strength to fight PTSD

This week on Facebook, I shared a post about struggling with my PTSD. It took me almost 30 minutes to be able to go into my home last night and then it took active support from three people to help get me to where I was able to do some self care actions that I […]

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Three types of love

  Recently I have been exploring the concept of “love”.  It is a small four letter word but it can have many, many meanings.  The Greeks and Romans had multiple words that we all lump together in the word “love”.  Yet we seldom ask, “What do you mean by “I love you” when you say […]

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My choice, my surrender and the King

One of the ways I get to be me and allow myself the fewest filters around who I am in public is to have a few strong committed relationships.  Ones that I know no matter what I do and how I screw up, those relationships will not be at risk.   There is a quote, […]

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Civil War and the Lessons it Offers Us

I don’t watch a lot of TV or movies so I am often behind the times.  Which is probably why I am watching Avengers Civil War and thinking deep thoughts now.  It is a movie where there are two hero groups each doing what they think is best. Each respecting each other. And neither acting […]

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Hurting and loving

The stress of the past three weeks is certainly beginning to show in my body. Pain levels have been up. Depression has gotten worse. And other recurring health concerns have shown up. I’m certainly feeling “wounded animal” syndrome. This is where an animal will curl it’s body up around the hurting part and discourage anyone […]

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Updating my values part 1

It was five years ago I last sat down and formally reviewed and created the list of my values. And while I’ve looked them over many times since then, I have not seriously reevaluates them or explored then since. Even though I have grown and changed much in those 5 years.   In a class […]

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I’m not PC and neither is my Leather

I am very curious when the leather community became so obsessed with being PC. Aren’t our roots in being sexual rebels. In extreme authenticity of the self, regardless of what is acceptable by society? Especially our sexual selves. Perhaps I have bought too much into a “romanticized” view of the mythical “old guard” era. Maybe […]

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