Glossary of some common terms: BDSM – An acronym for Bondage, Discipline/Dominace, submission/Sadism, Masochism. A term used for all Kinky relationships/interactions Power – the capacity or ability to direct or influence the behavior of others or the course of events Control – to have power over (something/someone), to direct the behavior of (a person or […]
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Thunder in the Mountains was a very unusual event for me this year. I’m still processing much of it. So far, when people have asked me how it was, I’ve said ”ok.”You see, I had some expectations going to the event of what would happen. I expected myself to be on my game, with good […]
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This week on Facebook, I shared a post about struggling with my PTSD. It took me almost 30 minutes to be able to go into my home last night and then it took active support from three people to help get me to where I was able to do some self care actions that I […]
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This week I did something big and scary. Now for those of you who know me, you know I challenge myself to do at least 3 scary things a day to help keep myself growing but this week I did something huge! You see, like many, I would love to be seen as perfect and […]
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Recently I have been exploring the concept of “love”. It is a small four letter word but it can have many, many meanings. The Greeks and Romans had multiple words that we all lump together in the word “love”. Yet we seldom ask, “What do you mean by “I love you” when you say […]
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One of the ways I get to be me and allow myself the fewest filters around who I am in public is to have a few strong committed relationships. Ones that I know no matter what I do and how I screw up, those relationships will not be at risk. There is a quote, […]
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I don’t watch a lot of TV or movies so I am often behind the times. Which is probably why I am watching Avengers Civil War and thinking deep thoughts now. It is a movie where there are two hero groups each doing what they think is best. Each respecting each other. And neither acting […]
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The stress of the past three weeks is certainly beginning to show in my body. Pain levels have been up. Depression has gotten worse. And other recurring health concerns have shown up. I’m certainly feeling “wounded animal” syndrome. This is where an animal will curl it’s body up around the hurting part and discourage anyone […]
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It was five years ago I last sat down and formally reviewed and created the list of my values. And while I’ve looked them over many times since then, I have not seriously reevaluates them or explored then since. Even though I have grown and changed much in those 5 years. In a class […]
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I haven’t shared much lately in what’s been going on with me. It’s been a very difficult year emotionally for me. I was not prepared for my post step-down drop. I figured with the imsl prep I wouldn’t have much. I was wrong. Imsl itself was a huge investment of time, spirit, heart, energy and […]
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