I am currently not owned or “under consideration” or in any other way in a formal power exchange relationship. Many of the people within the local community have spoken to me asking if I am still “unowned” and I have told them, “No, I am self-owned”. At first I used the term self-owned because […]
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Why? “they” sometimes ask me. Haven’t you seem it doesn’t work? Don’t you realize all this pain is all that it will bring you? Why? Because for all of this pain, there must be something amazing waiting for those of us who keep getting up and trying again. Because for it to not work I […]
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I have been thinking a lot about my wants and needs in an M/s relationship. I tend to gravitate towards Masters who have written house manuals because I know that they have done some of the self-exploration on wants and needs of an M/s relationship as well. However, I am learning that not all of […]
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Learning that the only person I have to prove anything to is the one in the mirror. I use to be very “in your face” about much of my life because I desired and craved others approval and acceptance of who and what I was, while knowing deep inside that it wasn’t acceptable to people. […]
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So I am a self-owned slave currently. I crave a 24/7 Total Power Exchange (TPE) relationship where I voluntarily give over control of many parts of my life, striving towards all of it, to another individual who in exchange for that control will help support and protect me. Someone who will help me build a […]
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I thought about calling this one kneeling at the wrong Master’s feet but I don’t like the thought of someone as a wrong Master. I am self-owned currently. And right now there is no right Master for me because no one is MY Master. And currently I’m not looking for a Master either. There is […]
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People have been asking me what they can do to help, and variations thereof, because of how difficult/painful things have been for me with my breakups. Until very recently, I could not figure out what to tell them. What do I need to help me heal? Well here are a few things: – Stop telling […]
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Sometimes I get stuck in my own head. And often times I forget that for others being in their head really isn’t a big deal. Well for me it is not only a big deal but it is a very bad thing. The inside of my head has constantly running tracks on many different things, […]
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Service vs Obedience Within Power Exchange Relationships there is an ongoing question on Service vs Obedience as the most important thing for the slave to do. And I have heard multiple answers and reasonings for each answer. It is common for some to even change their answers over time. The first step in answering this […]
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Until recently I was an attached slave and the Master I served had a forgiveness ritual that we were to use. It was something that was much more helpful to me than desired by him. Unfortunately, that meant it sometimes went unused which caused some troubles for me mentally and interfered with my service greatly. […]
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