Recollections of Hotness and Scenes in the Stands

Some excerpts from a journal entry about an event I attended in October of 2016. This was during my title year and I was presenting at the event as I recall: I went to the meet and greet. Then a tall drink of water in red-flamed Fluvogs came in asking if I wanted to give […]

Repairing the Broken Chalice – healing through PE breakups

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Presenting on Self-love and self-care

Healthy Fantasies Self Love Feb 2020 with xiaoyi

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From pain to gratitude

It hurts! It hurts so much sometimes. This not being owned. They’re are times I want to rant and scream because I can remember how wonderful things are for me when I’m owned. How so much of my self doubt goes away more often than not. How wonderful it is to be guided even just […]

Helping each other see ourselves

I was reading my list of affirmations from others and people’s favorite memories of me list tonight.  Sometimes there are memes and posts that say something to the effect of “you have to see your own worth before anyone with treat you as worth while”. And these drive me bonkers! I firmly believe that these […]

Thoughts on cuffs work by slaves by me

Cuffs are worn as a sign of power. Wonder Woman, one of the major icons of female empowerment, wear cuffs.  Never forget these are a sign of your strength in flexibility.  The branch that bends does not break in a storm.  Wearing cuffs is a promise to yourself that you will maintain yourself as a […]

Breaking breakup silence

One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]

Requesting a change and my own safe space

This is a copy of a letter I wrote a potential Owner after they asked for access to my journals. It was also after an incident where they decide to drop several “disappointed”s on me because I made a decision on an area I hadn’t yet given them control of and they didn’t like it. […]

Mental Health Growth

A few years ago, I desperately needed to not be alone. Fear and pride stood in my way however and I walked away from someone trying to help me because my heart hurt so much.  I was in crisis and made a poor decision to crawl into a bottle looking to become numb. It was […]