Helping each other see ourselves
I was reading my list of affirmations from others and people’s favorite memories of me list tonight. Sometimes there are memes and posts that say something to the effect of “you have to see your own worth before anyone with treat you as worth while”. And these drive me bonkers! I firmly believe that these […]
Continue readingThoughts on cuffs work by slaves by me
Cuffs are worn as a sign of power. Wonder Woman, one of the major icons of female empowerment, wear cuffs. Never forget these are a sign of your strength in flexibility. The branch that bends does not break in a storm. Wearing cuffs is a promise to yourself that you will maintain yourself as a […]
Continue readingBreaking breakup silence
One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]
Continue readingRequesting a change and my own safe space
This is a copy of a letter I wrote a potential Owner after they asked for access to my journals. It was also after an incident where they decide to drop several “disappointed”s on me because I made a decision on an area I hadn’t yet given them control of and they didn’t like it. […]
Continue readingMental Health Growth
A few years ago, I desperately needed to not be alone. Fear and pride stood in my way however and I walked away from someone trying to help me because my heart hurt so much. I was in crisis and made a poor decision to crawl into a bottle looking to become numb. It was […]
Continue readingReflections After Breakups
One thing seldom discussed in our Power Exchange and Authority Transfer communities is breakups. Here’s is an edited journal about one of my M/s breakups. Hopefully, by breaking the silence around this topic, we can get more discussions going on how to ethically end these relationships. Because I can vouch to you the words “you […]
Continue readingColorado Leather Fest 2016 – my perspective
For most people Colorado Leather Fest 2016 started on Friday mid-afternoon or evening. For me, it started almost 3 years before. You see, about three years prior my MOO (Master of Origin) heard stirrings about a new event that was going to be started in Colorado and got both of us invited to that initial […]
Continue readingNeeding to be Broken
I cried myself to sleep last night. The Dragon (my hubby) for a little bit had his hands on my hip and pet me. This morning I posted on Facebook “sometimes you have to cry and do it anyway” that was just prior to an almost four hour long cathartic meltdown. Dragon tried to be […]
Continue readingThunder in the Mountains 2018 reflections
Thunder in the Mountains was a very unusual event for me this year. I’m still processing much of it. So far, when people have asked me how it was, I’ve said ”ok.”You see, I had some expectations going to the event of what would happen. I expected myself to be on my game, with good […]
Continue readingSlave Strength to fight PTSD
This week on Facebook, I shared a post about struggling with my PTSD. It took me almost 30 minutes to be able to go into my home last night and then it took active support from three people to help get me to where I was able to do some self care actions that I […]
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